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"Finding Peace"Written By: Shinigami 195 Disclaimer: Don’t own the characters Rating: PG-13 Warnings: Angst, swearing, rape Pairings: 2+1 Summary: Small ficlet on Duo’s thoughts on
his life.
Finding Peace
I go out everyday and returned covered in bruises, blood
and smelling of death. You always know when one of us returns from a mission
because the scent of Death can be smelt and tasted thickly in the
air. Sex is my undoing, at the tender age of 8 I let a man
fuck me until I bleed, that’s why Heero is always on bottom. I never was innocent I never had a chance to be That’s why Heero and me are perfect for each other,
he was never innocent, his life has been nothing part from war and
death. All our lives are full of Death, even sweet young Quatre. You can’t love in a war, loving and caring is pointless
in a world where everyday the blood of innocents is spilled. I can’t love… People I love die. Heero can’t love neither… He was never taught how. But together we have a chance, of making things good…
if only for a little while. In our room, in our bed, away from what we believe to
be a normal life, we can share a bond deeper than friendship or love.
We can share the act of love and feel another body, against, next
to, joined with our own. We can forget about war, blood and death. We can pretend to love… We can pretend to be innocent, clean and untainted. We understand each other and in a way, I love him for that. But Heero doesn’t want love, neither do I. We don’t deserve it and we know it. But in each other we have found a strange sort of peace. Owari *Walks away quietly* ~Shinigami195~
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